what i chose to do for class for most of this week
most likely the worst week in my entire life in japan..
and with such stunning accuracy
i wrote my own story with the perfect soundtrack..



Big World
by Emilia

Chorus:
I'm a big big girl in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...

I can see the first leaf falling
it's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
like the way I'm feeling inside

Chorus x 1

Outside it's now raining
and tears are falling from my eyes
why did it have to happen
why did it all have to end

Chorus x 1

I have your arms around me ooooh like fire
but when I open my eyes
you're gone...

Chorus x 2

ikeda asked me why does the singer feel big
even though she just had a breakup?
maybe she's trying to encourage herself
trying to be strong?

not feeling particularly confident
but a greater sense of calm and clarity
than what i've experienced this entire week
maybe it will work out..

"some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this"
what if you wait a lifetime and the moment never arrives?
s0me people are just fated to be waiters

tired of waiting
always the waiter
does it occur to the waiter
that the fate of their lives lies in their own hands
the power they wield over their own lives

a life spent waiting
a life wasted?

but Tokugawa Ieyasu won Japan by waiting.

how does it feel to be told
that it doesnt matter anymore
that perhaps it never was important
a farce - you were so easily taken in
such naivety

freely the tears flow
where to

typhoon is very happy to be moving house

she just checked her new apartment just now and everything's in order

just that she has no idea how she's gonna get a bed

but well having a clean environment is very important, esp toilets.

she doesn't really like sch a lot cos the teachers dun really talk to her a whole lot

and there are a lot of male teachers while the female teachers are mostly part-time

on the other hand, she's becoming a mini-celebrity

with all the students recognising her on the streets

whom she has no inkling are from her schools at all

it's nice in a way, to have people recognise and smile at you

she only wishes that she can still shop unknown

she is fallin in love with onigiris
they are oiishi and yasui
which is good for her stomach and pocket

in japan, mayonnaise is a food group by itself

she has been nicknamed typhoon
due to the japanese inability to pronounce "h"

she has a friend called godzilla

japanese students can sleep and talk in class and NOT get scolded

japanese ppl love to say sumimasen and nod their heads

people here are really nice in small ways
everyone is willing to help you when you are lost
from the 80 year old lady to the hair dresser to women out on an evening stroll

people here are honest, people do not lock their bikes when they go into stores.

just signed away like half of my fortune in japan
technically, i didnt even sign..
i just had to give my inkan to the real estate agent and he did all the work
haha and nv felt so happy giving away so much $
lol

hoonie is truly really honto ni stuck in inaka :p

yea settling in and not liking it a lot..it's been one week since i reached bungotakada. out of 8 days..my supervisor has left me alone for 5 days..super nice right? sulks..

i feel young naive and am wondering why i left in the first place..lol but well let's hope this is just the beginning

on the plus side i've got a bicycle so that makes me mobile and transport is free of charge..and i've got a big double bed..which i only managed to find bedsheets for after scouring 5 supermarkets and which was the last and only set, by the way. how nice.

and i bought a new canon camera! G9..kinda impulse buy but i've tried weiyuet's and it's pretty gd..and SHUMIE if u're reading this..weiyuet spews plenty of nonsense when he's drunk..hahaha he claims to be KOREAN STAR :p sorry no photos or videos..he wldnt allow me..but it's still my mouth..

ok let's pray hard and hope that things will get better :)

and this is pretty useful

http://bahiaportfolio.wordpress.com/2008/02/22/

osaki ni shitsurei shimasu (for all the nonsense i've been doing on the school com but i cldnt care less..so deprived of internet..)